When The Mind Tries To Reconnect The Old Story | Emotional Patterns Resurfacing

Lately I’ve noticed this subtle unraveling happening underneath the outer layers of self.

Not easily detected.
Not breakdown energy.

More this uncomfortable shifting under the surface where old insecurities, frustrations, emotions, and emotional patterns start resurfacing again.

One minute you feel fine.
The next you are emotionally reactive, irritated, doubting yourself, unable to switch your mind off.

Sleep gets disrupted.
Thoughts loop.
Situations suddenly feel louder than they probably are.

It can feel confusing when these emotional patterns resurface because many of them are connected to experiences we thought we had already worked through.

And it can take a few steps through the same cycles to realise that the actual issue is no longer there.

The energy connected to it has already shifted.

The familiar emotional pathway is trying to find itself. The ego mind recognises this feeling and starts searching for the old story (any story) to attach meaning to it.

The Body Still Holds The Echo

My years working with Ortho-Bionomy have given me a real closeness to the different personalities within my body’s structure and how quickly it responds.

Often, the brain still believes the issues are there long after the body has already released them.

It can take new opportunities along a similar emotional thread for us, wholistically, to fully integrate the shift in patterns.

There’s a common saying in bodywork, “the issues are in the tissues,” and honestly, I’ve found there’s a lot of truth in that.

The jaw tightens.
The chest contracts.
The thoughts start spiralling.

Not because we are going backwards, even though it feels like this, sometimes it is simply the mind catching up to the new vibrations already moving through the body.

That awareness alone changes a lot.

Instead of feeding the reaction or fully attaching ourselves to the emotional story, we can start noticing what is actually happening underneath it all.

This is where body awareness becomes really important.

Returning To Myself

When I notice these states building, I consciously take myself away to my room, my sacred space setup.

I stop.
Feel my feet on the ground.
Notice my breath.
Relax my shoulders.

Then I slowly check back through my body:
jaw,
knees,
hands,
facial muscles,
legs,
feet.

I’ll lift my heels just (1-2 inches) off the ground and drop them back down, creating this ripple back up through the centre structural core of my body.

Then I wriggle and shake everything out.

That simple movement helps interrupt the emotional loop running through the body and calms my nervous system.

From there, I can usually feel myself more clearly again.

I call my attention back to me.
Back from the situation.
Back from the person.
Back from the spiralling mental chatter.

Sometimes we become so attached to the energy of something that we stop hearing ourselves within it all.

The Calm Within The Noise

Once the mind chatter settles, I can feel the support around me again.

Nature.
My team.
The deeper, calmer layers of myself.

It’s within this space that a gentle presence steps in and stops me from continuing to feed the mental/emotional spiral.

My spirit self, Ngahekah, the easiest way I can explain her is as the calmest, wisest, most loving version of myself imaginable.

No ego.
No fear.
No emotional story attached.

Just presence.
Truth.
Love.

Every time I reconnect with that part of myself, I remember I still have a choice.

I can keep feeding the emotional train wreck and attach another carriage onto it…

Or I can soften.
Breathe.
Allow the wave to move through my bodysuit.
Let the body settle.
Choose to find sleep in this presence.

Not everything surfacing right now needs to be a battle.

Sometimes these emotional patterns are aware to us because they are leaving.

Vicki x