Try This Meditation When Life Feels Too Hard

A Written Activation to Help You Find Your Centre

This morning I woke with a reminder from Archangel Jophiel and Metatron.

Yesterday, I shared a transmission about finding the light within grief and darkness. That transmission didn’t end when the video finished.

It was a subtle awareness of, yes, something feels different.

I could still feel my vibration shifting as I moved through my morning. Yesterday’s golden coding was continuing to download and settle into my body suit and mental awareness, with today’s tourmaline frequency adding another layer to the transmission.

The tourmaline frequency isn’t unfamiliar to me.

These two golden tourmalines in this image were Tommy’s first physical embodiment. Tommy is a fairy who came from the forest near our home to bring healing during a difficult time many years ago.

He now resides within the larger black tourmaline. Tommy is deeply attached to Natasha, protects Sacha’s room and likes to come with us to all our Spirit Fairs.

Rather than moving straight back into autopilot in my morning, I was encouraged to pause, acknowledge my team, and give my attention to what I was still receiving.

To respect the deeper shifts taking place and play my part in allowing the transmission to continue unfolding.

A big part of what I teach within my mentorship is learning to trust what you feel and notice, and then choosing to explore it more deeply within your own practice.

It is like exercising a new muscle or learning any new skill.

For me, this year’s project has been making sourdough bread. I’m happy to say my starter is still alive, and making bread has now become part of my toolkit.

I no longer need to use a lot of brainpower thinking through every step. It feels natural and easy, and I can move through the process almost on autopilot.

Learning to work with the transmissions we receive is much the same.

The more we practise noticing, trusting and returning to what we receive, the more naturally we can access it.

When I felt the light codes calling my attention back this morning, it would have been easy to notice them briefly, cut my morning meditation short after receiving only the headlines, and continue with my day.

When we give what we receive only a passing moment of attention, we can miss the opportunity to more fully understand what our team is teaching us.

Our practice deepens when we consciously choose to stay, pay attention and allow more to unfold.

We create the space—and find the courage—to return to what we received the day before.

We sit with the coding again, not to return to the pain and suffering, but to reconnect with what was delivered and is still being received.

We explore what is continuing to shift and open within us.

We allow it to show us more.

This doesn’t mean forcing an experience or trying to recreate the original transmission.

It means noticing what is still moving within you and giving it your time and attention.

As I returned to the golden light codes, the teaching began to expand.

It showed me the emotional weight we hold within the body and the thoughts and stories that keep replenishing it.

It then showed me how we can move out from underneath that weight without denying what has happened or pretending it no longer matters.

The following written activation is what unfolded.

Before You Begin

Find somewhere you can sit comfortably and remain undisturbed for a few minutes.

You may like to read through the activation first and then close your eyes, allowing yourself to remember the parts you need.

You don’t have to see every detail clearly.

You may see an image, feel a sensation, hear a word or simply know something.

Trust what you feel and notice.

Moving Out from Beneath the Boulder

Take a deep breath in.

And release.

Allow your breath to settle your body and bring your awareness into the present moment.

Let your energy know you are ready to receive.

Imagine yourself seated within a cube of golden-yellow tourmaline light.

The cube is gridded around you, creating a space for the transmission from Archangel Jophiel and Metatron to continue.

Feel the warmth of the golden light surrounding your body.

See it moving across your skin and touching your body suit.

Allow it to meet your breath, your muscles, your nervous system and your thoughts.

The light doesn’t ask you to deny what you feel or push yourself to be somewhere you are not.

It meets you exactly where you are.

Place your hands on your knees with your palms facing upwards.

In your left hand, imagine a large boulder.

This boulder represents the emotional weight held in the pit of your stomach—the grief, despair, loss or lack you have been carrying.

In your right hand, imagine a jagged rock.

This rock represents the story attached to that emotional weight—the thoughts, memories, actions, events and should-haves you continue to revisit.

The things you believe you should have done.

The things you wish you hadn’t done.

The conversations and events you continue to turn over in your mind.

Each time you return to that story, another small piece breaks from the rock and replenishes the chip you carry on your shoulder.

Notice the connection between what you are holding in each hand.

Your left side holds the emotional weight.

Your right side holds the story and the actions connected to it.

The pit in your stomach.

The chip on your shoulder.

Emotional and mental.

Feminine and masculine.

Feeling and action.

Allow yourself to notice how your body responds.

You may feel movement through your left or right side.

You may notice something within your stomach, shoulder, chest, hands or breath.

Let it be.

Just notice.

Now see yourself seated on the edge of a cliff face.

This is the cliff face from which you have continued to replenish the chip on your shoulder.

You may begin to notice different points along your timeline.

Your birth family.

Your childhood.

Different ages and experiences as you were growing up.

Relationships, events and moments that have brought you to where you are now.

You don’t need to return to these moments or work anything out.

Simply recognise what your body has continued to hold.

You have the boulder in your left hand.

You have the jagged rock in your right.

You can feel them.

You are aware of them.

Now, very slowly, begin to slide your left hand out from underneath the boulder.

Then slide your right hand out from underneath the jagged rock.

You are not throwing them away.

You are not pretending they didn’t happen.

You are simply moving your hands out from underneath their weight.

Begin to gently scoot backwards.

Move slowly so you don’t disturb the boulder or the rock.

Keep moving backwards until your body meets the trunk of a tree.

Feel the solid trunk against your back.

Feel the earth beneath your body.

Notice the air touching your skin.

Listen to the sounds of nature around you.

Allow the tree to hold and support your body.

The golden-yellow tourmaline light continues to surround you, moving through the tree, the earth and the space around you.

From here, you can witness what you have been carrying without sitting underneath it.

The boulder is still there.

The jagged rock is still there.

But they are no longer being held within your hands or supported by your body.

Notice how different you feel within your body.

You are free from the weight of those burdens.

You are no longer holding the heaviness in the pit of your stomach or carrying that chip on your shoulder.

You feel lighter.

Freer.

More at ease.

All that dis-ease has separated from you.

It is still there in front of you, but you are no longer sitting underneath its weight.

Feel the space that has opened within your body.

Allow the golden-yellow tourmaline light to fill that space.

Feel its warmth touching your skin.

Notice the softness returning to your shoulders.

Feel the ease within your breath.

Allow your stomach to soften.

Feel your body being held by the tree and supported by the earth.

Notice the light codes moving through the tree and into your back.

They move through your body, filling the spaces that have opened and awakening your own light from within.

Rest here, held by nature and surrounded by the light codes of Archangel Jophiel and Metatron.

Remember what this feels like to be at ease within your body.

Remember what this feels like to be free from the weight.

Remember what this feels like to reside within love and light.

You are light—even when you cannot feel it, see it or access it.

Stay here for as long as you need.

Allow the light codes to continue expanding and activating within your system.

You don’t need to understand everything they are showing you today.

Keep noticing what you feel.

Trust what arises.

You may receive another part of the teaching tomorrow or over the days ahead.

When you are ready, take a deep breath in, right down to the bottom of your belly.

Feel the tree against your back and the earth beneath you.

Bring your awareness back into your physical body.

Feel your hands resting on your knees.

Move your fingers, move your toes, move your facial muscles.

Open your eyes and gently return to the room.

Returning to the Light Codes

This activation doesn’t end when you finish reading.

The light codes remain active.

You can return to this experience whenever you feel called, but don’t try to force it to be the same each time.

Notice what feels different.

Notice what has become easier to access.

Notice whether the boulder or rock has changed in shape, weight or texture.

You may be shown something completely new.

This is how we learn to trust what we receive.

We pause.

We pay attention.

We make space for it.

Then we return and allow it to show us more.

With practice, working with what we feel and notice can become just as natural as any other skill we have taken the time to learn.

It becomes part of our own toolkit.

With love,

Vicki 💛

Prefer to Be Guided Through the Activation?

I have also recorded this activation for those who would rather close their eyes and be guided through the experience.

Find somewhere comfortable, allow yourself to receive, and let the golden-yellow tourmaline light codes meet you wherever you are today.

Watch the guided activation on YouTube →